Starry Nights

We spend hours talking
Laughing till we cry
Side by side we're walking
Giving teenage years a try

You see the good in me
When I can't find it for myslef
In my room you can see
Our picture on the shelf

It's nice to have a friend like you
Who knows my secrets good or bad
It's nice to have someone who
Has never seen my sad

You see, I can't help but smile
When I'm with you
Because all the while
You're smiling too

We stick up for eachother
And never get into fights
You see you're like my brother
That makes me smile on starry nights

Her Secrets

She is a little girl you've know since you were three
She means the world to you and me
She is always laughing with a smile on her face
When life is hectic she'll slow down your pace
She gives you a hug and heads on home
She promises you can talk on the phone
There's something about her you don't know
Something that worsens as she continues to grow
She aches all day and cries all night
Because all her parents do is fight
She cries and she screams when no one's there
She's beginning to feel like no one cares
She keeps on searching for ways to cope
She's tried the beer and the dope
They didn't work she still hurts inside
She even thinks of suicide
When you called she didn't want to talk
You begged her to come and go for a walk
She tells you her father causes her harm
Then lifts up her sleeve to show you her arm
You see the scars old and new
In your heart you know what to do
" I'll always love you and always be there"
You tell her a friend like her is rare
You give her a hug and wipe away her tears
And think of good times in upcoming years
No one else knows what happened that day
You promised your friend that's how it would stay
No one can tell, she seems so content
But you know of those horrible nights she spent

Why?

Why would I want to be like you
When I was born to shine?
Why would I do the things you do
When there are things that could be mine?
Why would I want to sit around all day
When I could be having fun?
Why would I go inside to stay
When I could be out in the sun?
Why would I want to be as good as you
When I could be as good as me?
Why would I do what you want me to
When I could do what pleases me?
Why would I want to be like you
When I am one of a kind?
Why would I want to be like you
When I was born to shine?

Blue pencil

I sit at the desk
Pencil in hand
Don't know what to write
The paper doesn't understand

Why won't you write on me
And fill me with words
For people to read
Of nature and birds

Still nothing comes to mind
And the paper lies blank
Until I see the blue pencil
Hiding behind the piggy bank

Please don't write with me
I'm afraid I'll do something wrong
Then everyone would see
And i won't be alive long

I pick up him up
Gently in my hand
And press lightly on the paper
The desk cheers him on

You cand do it little pencil
You were meant to write
Just push down on the paper
Everything will be alright

Finally I finish
The paper is now full
I set the pencil down
And admire how it's full

I look amazing says the paper
I did great says the pencil
I knew you could do it says the desk
Thank you says the little blue pencil

You're gone

No need for worrying anymore
No need for hurrying out the door
There’s nothing out there to look forward to
There’s nothing out there that I want to do
I wave goodbye, you don't turn around
I start to cry, and I stare at the ground
Now there's nothing I can do
But sit down here and dream of you
It’s over for you
And it's over for me
Somehow we knew
That it couldn't be
I hold you in my heart
Even though we're miles apart
I gave you everything I had
You only made me mad
It didn't bother me
And somehow now I see
All I want is you today
All I want is for you to stay

People Do Care

Sorrows and pain build up inside
To the point you’re near explosion
Only thing on your mind is suicide
Your body has no motion
Slowly the tears start to fall
You want to get away
Just to run, run away from it all
You star to leave that day
You take a couple steps, only two
Then you cannot go anymore
Someone has put their arms around you
They won’t let you through the door
They hold you tight and won’t let go
Then softly whisper they are there
And that’s when you just know
It’s really true these people do care

Missing and Remembering

I miss the past
When you were my friend
I thought I would last
Until the end
But now I never see you
And there is tension between us
I don’t know what I can do
To gain back your trust
I miss the feeling of being in love
I miss how you wrapped your arms around me
I miss thinking you were an angel sent from above
I miss the gentleman you would be
Remember the days you could make me smile
Remember the days we spent hours together
Remember your number was the only one I would dial
Remember all the talk of lasting forever
The days we would spend hours talking
The days you made me smile
The days we spent in town walking
The day I dreamt of walking down the aisle
I wish you were back by my side
I wish we could share that kiss
I wish I wasn’t always hurting inside
I wish we weren’t fighting like this

Just a Guy

My friends, they say
He’s just a guy
But every day
I wonder why

When I see him walk by
And he doesn’t look black
I just want to cry
All colors turn to black

I find my self lost in a dream
Of this boy that makes me smile
But then again it’s all a dream
And it’s over in a while

I no he’ll never like me
And I could never be his girl
But I long to make him see
That he is my entire world

So I will continue to love him
Even though he doesn’t care
Because if someone ever hurts him
He should know I will be there

I'll Live Your Dreams

It may be time for you to go
And in my heart I always know
There is someone their up above
Someone who sends me all their love
When I feel the wind blow through my hair
I know that you are always there
When the raindrops fall and kiss my face
And when my heart begins to race
I will do the things you would have done
I’ll laugh the laughs and share the fun
I’ll cry the tears and scream the screams
But most of all I’ll live your dreams
Meet the people and touch their hearts
Pass on the dreams with all the arts
My heart’s been torn right at the seams
Just remember I’ll live your dreams
You made a difference like you wanted to
I’ll never forget the day I met you
You left behind many, many a friend
And in our hearts you never end
I’ll always remember how you made me smile
I sit and think about you every once and a while
I go on living without a doubt
My angel, there to help me out
I wake up knowing today could be my last
I know you’re not just a thing in the past
And when the day comes for me to die
Once again we can say hi
We’ll look down upon the oceans and streams
And we will know we lived our dreams

Daddy's Girl

You cautiously watch people around you
And somehow you just know
But there’s nothing you can do
And soon your dad might go

You remember the times from the past
And try not to think of tomorrow
Time with him as gone to fast
And you’re slowly filled with sorrow

There’s still that little bet of hope
As you say your prayers every night
You smile and try not to mope
Hoping he wins the fight

People before him of won
And people before him have died
It’s hard to go out and have fun
When your heart is aching inside

Everyone in the world
Should be praying for my Dad
I’ve always been my daddy’s girl
And right now I am so sad

15 Minutes

It’s 4 am and I’m walking down the street
My breaths are short and far apart
Only sound you hear is the stepping of my feet
And the beating of my heart
Things got hard this year
And pressure pounded against me
I cannot cry even one more tear
I do not hear, I do not see
My friends left and never looked back
My parents decided to send me away
They told me to go start to pack
For I was leaving the next day
I reach into my pocket
And out it comes
A last look in my favorite locket
My heart beats like a thousand drums
Now there is silence my life is done
You do not hear my stepping feet
Down to the ground slowly drops the gun
It’s 4:15 and I’m dead on the street

14 years

I’ve spent 14 years in this small town
Now I shall share all that I’ve found
Be yourself always at your best
It doesn’t matter about the rest
Sometimes life gets tough
You’ll feel like you’ve had enough
Just hold your head up high
And let out a small sigh
Just think about tomorrow
When joy replaces sorrow
Remember every friend
And all the times that you’ll spend
Remember they will always love you
And will stay true no matter what you do
There’s one more thing before I go
There’s one more thing that you should know
Whenever you are in need of a friend
You’ll always find me right around the bend